It's...it hurts. It likely will for however long I live. Above all else, he was my friend--and I loved him dearly.
[No point in lying about it, really.]
I was six when we met, and I've never known any other life. I don't know that I exist as an individual person outside of what I fashioned myself into in service to him and to the kingdom. But I...would like to. I should have tried long ago, but it is simply what it is.
And I think...that's what makes spirit worth having. The fact that losing Noct hurts more than I can describe doesn't lessen what I felt and still feel about him. It doesn't make me care less for the world he died to save, or for our friends he's left behind. I'm happy with the life I've led to this point. And I'd like to continue it, even if I'm not sure how.
...I don't think it strange at all, coming from you. You would have killed me for your own loyalty; how can I truly fault you for that when I would have killed anyone who came close to laying a hand on him?
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[No point in lying about it, really.]
I was six when we met, and I've never known any other life. I don't know that I exist as an individual person outside of what I fashioned myself into in service to him and to the kingdom. But I...would like to. I should have tried long ago, but it is simply what it is.
And I think...that's what makes spirit worth having. The fact that losing Noct hurts more than I can describe doesn't lessen what I felt and still feel about him. It doesn't make me care less for the world he died to save, or for our friends he's left behind. I'm happy with the life I've led to this point. And I'd like to continue it, even if I'm not sure how.
...I don't think it strange at all, coming from you. You would have killed me for your own loyalty; how can I truly fault you for that when I would have killed anyone who came close to laying a hand on him?