[But he's not wrong, and she doesn't correct him. She smiles wide, because she knows if she doesn't, she might cry.
Yeah. She's always been lonely. Rin has a blunt personality and will plainly admit most things, but that's one thing she can't admit to. Describing it like this was the best she could do, because if anything it downplayed that ache. It only scratched the surface.
The loneliness Rin grew up in isn't one most people can understand. That's not even melodramatic teenage angst; there's maybe only one person in the world who could relate, and they've barely spoken to one another in ten years. She hasn't even told Shirou or Saber.
So yes. Rin smiles.]
And that's why I had to cut back. That's the difference between you and me, Kobayakawa-kun. Unlike you, even now I do want to keep playing. Magecraft is a messed up sport, but that's how much I love it.
I'm not stupid, though. I know now how badly that would end for me, so I've compromised by abandoning a lot of those rules. The Mage's Association would balk, but I live my life as I please these days.
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You said it, not me.
[But he's not wrong, and she doesn't correct him. She smiles wide, because she knows if she doesn't, she might cry.
Yeah. She's always been lonely. Rin has a blunt personality and will plainly admit most things, but that's one thing she can't admit to. Describing it like this was the best she could do, because if anything it downplayed that ache. It only scratched the surface.
The loneliness Rin grew up in isn't one most people can understand. That's not even melodramatic teenage angst; there's maybe only one person in the world who could relate, and they've barely spoken to one another in ten years. She hasn't even told Shirou or Saber.
So yes. Rin smiles.]
And that's why I had to cut back. That's the difference between you and me, Kobayakawa-kun. Unlike you, even now I do want to keep playing. Magecraft is a messed up sport, but that's how much I love it.
I'm not stupid, though. I know now how badly that would end for me, so I've compromised by abandoning a lot of those rules. The Mage's Association would balk, but I live my life as I please these days.