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Test 6.
EMOTION After the discussions with Lucas, he seems calm enough; any visible nerves around you, muted though they may have been, seem gone entirely by now, and he seems sure that Mesprit will be able to make the right decision when it comes to what to do. Besides, even if it isn't displayed prominently it's clear that he's concerned about it; whatever is making it affect the Pokémon in the cave like this is more than a bit of a worry, even if the feelings flooding though those of you here haven't stopped, either - the sense that things will be okay somehow, the odd comforting presence, hasn't faded. Perhaps it's a good sign for things to come. Perhaps it's promising, perhaps it's meant to be an invitation. Perhaps it's a request for help. Either way, Lucas recalls Torterra - he isn't immune to the despondency flooding through the cavern either, though it seems it's taken a little bit longer to hit him - and he'll gesture for you to follow him; he weaves easily through the stalagmite structures everywhere, and after a while the lot of you will become aware of an area emanating a warm glow in front of what looks like another corridor. It's soft and pink, and looks more like a dim light than anything solid; however, touching it or pushing against it will prove to be like trying to move a steel wall reinforced with concrete, using nothing but your bare hands. In other words, for a soft pink glow, it's very, very firm. Lucas shifts a bit in front of it. "This is it. I've been working on it for a few days now, but nothing really seems to work - I've tried teleporting around it, but that doesn't work, and Pokémon moves won't break it at all. "I really think Mesprit is back there; we need to help it." Do your best; that's all anyone asks of you right now. |
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...Oh goddammit, she just felt herself tear up a bit, let her try to just kind of wipe her eyes--]
...Thank you, dear. I'm happy that you understand. A world without any of that to it...it feels so wrong, and...lonesome.
[That's spoken as if Camilla knows that well.]
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You're familiar with loneliness, aren't you?]
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...Yes. It's...a very familiar feeling, that I grew up with for most of my life.
[That's...a very vague way of putting it, but it's not something she's sure if she can discuss. If Mesprit has any ability to get into her head, they can probably see what Camilla's thinking about, and it's...definitely very sad, even lamenting. A lack of love, because the only thing her mother cared about was getting favor from Garon.
...There might be just a little bit of anger in there, too, though Camilla tries to force herself to calm.]
...It's a terrible way to live.
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You don't deserve that. No one deserves that.]
...cw concubine wars? cw concubine wars, because yikes
You--you're right. It isn't. It never has been, and--
[Breathe, girl. Breathe. It takes a moment, really, for that anger to die down and for her to kind of rein herself in, and her words are decidedly softer this time.]
...Not all of us were children of the King and Queen; of us all, Xander was the only one. [Boy, is this gonna be a hard thing to talk about.] My father...couldn't let go of any of the women he fancied, and those women numbered far into the double digits. They practically filled the castle at the time; Leo, Elise, and I were only some of the results of his time with them. Those concubines simply couldn't stand one another, however; they wanted to be the only one Father cared about, and would do anything to assure that. They fought for so much favor from him, and we were nothing to them unless we could help them reach their goals. They cared for nothing but carving out an existence for themselves from their low birth, even if it meant that we grew up with near nothing ourselves. It...was awful.
[...]
It's why I would never want anyone to experience that sort of loneliness. [Her words are more resolute when she says that much.] I've always looked out for my siblings, and I would do anything for them to ensure that they never felt like there was nobody there for them. Even these people here...I want to protect them with all I have, so nothing like that could ever come to pass. I know what it does to someone, and I know that it takes a conscious effort to bring ones self up from that, and remind themselves that the world is so much more than that.
This world...it's not perfect, but there's so much wonder to it, and it's abundant with opportunity and beauty. [Camilla's smile is soft.] ...It can rise up from this. I believe it so.
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To want something so beautiful from that much sadness... It says a lot about you. Don't let go of that. You should be proud of it. And even if you can't always be, others here can be proud of you also. They love you. There's a lot of love here.]
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...Arion, however, looks up and he's doing a bit of a Concern, so hopefully you don't mind a little dragon talking to you while Camilla tries to get herself together--]
Hey, is she...is my human going to be okay?
[God, seeing her cry almost makes him wanna cry? And he doesn't even have eyes to cry with.]
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So she reaches out to take Camilla's hand for a gentle squeeze; one solid, assuring insistence that she isn't alone, certainly not now, not here.]
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The squeeze is nice, and Emmeryn will get that back along with a smile.]
...Thank you.
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[And she'll hold on unless and until Camilla decides she wants her hand back and loosens the hold or pulls away; no matter what, she's here as long as Camilla wants or needs.]
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She'll be okay. Sometimes things are hard to handle, and sometimes you need to feel sad about things you haven't had to be happy about the ones you do.
It's a lot to take in. But she'll be all right. You'll make sure she isn't going to be alone, right?]
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Uh-huh. You bet I'm gonna! I...I like, love my human a lot, you know! It's because of her that I can be like this, and have good feelings and dumb-dumb ones sometimes! I won't let her be alone, never ever! I promise!
[He even goes up and boops Camilla's leg a bit with his head, causing her to look down before seeing him just kind of curl up at her feet and rub his head against her leg. It's...honestly cute, and it makes Camilla smile? Her free hand goes down to pet him on the head.]
Oh, Arion...you're so sweet. Thank you, my dear.
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[That managed to shock her a bit, actually, almost making her lose her balance in the process, but well, hey! That at least makes her a little more aware, chuckling and patting the barrier a bit.]
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Well, she needs to stay here, but at his trainer's urging, Monkey will hesitantly come forward. Um. He's going to pat her knee? Are you okay? His trainer is worried about you.]
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...Thank you, dear. It truly means a lot, and...I'm certain I will be fine.
[She is definitely gonna thank Rin later for sure, it looks like she's occupied.]
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But in general, he's confident Arion can take care of her; he's her pokemon, after all, so the Mienfoo will leave it to him.]
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It's her Porygon (it's one of the smallest and thus can be the most gentle on the machine, cradling it in both of it's "feet" turned around to lay it flat) and the picture on the screen of it is a selfie that the two of them took months ago now. ]
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Camilla is a little surprised at the little guy coming over with Zelda's little slate but when she...sees what it's turned to...
...Goddammit, she's smiling? She's definitely smiling, and she's trying not to start with the crying again, goddammit--]
...We really have come so far, haven't we? Thank you, little dear.
[CAMILLA DOES NOT HAVE ENOUGH HANDS TO LOVE ALL OF YOU, DEAR GOD...]
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[ Zelda answers, keeping her own position, but yeah.
... Porygon just looks blank faced. Whatever this like. It's depressing here. But it did bring the slate and so it can right it's feet if Camilla took it so it's just kinda. gonna cower here a moment -
...
Actually it's going to leap inside the screen of the Slate. ]
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Camilla can't honestly say she was expecting that at all, looking utterly bewildered, but. Damn? Damn. Technology is weird and so is Porygon.]
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[HELLO AYA she did not expect that and is almost knocked over but you know what, you are getting hugged back too? You pure pink girl you, she's doing her best to keep her balance after that but it's so appreciated.]
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