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Week 13.
WEEK 13 The trip to Celestic Town is an unconventional one, though it's infinitely faster than walking and doesn't leave everyone feeling woozy in the same way that teleportation does. The town itself is a small one, though it's scenic, and there's a sort of beauty to it that's very rustic in nature; it's surrounded on both sides by mountainous routes that you're welcome to go on to both the west and the east, though it wouldn't be recommended that you venture too far out, seeing as they can be on the dangerous side for those who are unfamiliar with them. It seems Cynthia was right about one thing - there was certainly an incident at Lake Verity that went off almost as soon as you left, another of those deep pulses echoing through the surrounding area; it seems that whatever Mesprit did can be felt by the region as a whole, given that Celestic Town and the surrounding areas seem to have been affected as well despite being so far east of the lake. Cynthia herself can be found throughout the town for the duration, should anyone want to speak to her. Sometimes when left to her own devices, she can be seen in the company of a little girl who looks very similar to herself; sometimes she's with a pair of people much older. Either way, the family resemblance is strong. Lucas is here as well; he's still willing to speak to anyone that wants to, though he seems a bit subdued. Either way, it's been a long, harrowing trip so far; hopefully spending some time here will help to rejuvenate you. POKEMON AVAILABLE: WITHIN CITIES SURROUNDING ROUTES: MOUNTAINS/ELEVATED AREAS SUNDAY | MONDAY | TUESDAY | WEDNESDAY | THURSDAY | FRIDAY [OOC: Welcome to week thirteen of Azume; feel free to make as many top levels as you'd like and tag out to other characters! This post is for all of your interactions this week... at least until the weekend.] |
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Yeah, I'm okay. Probably just need to sleep some shit off, that's all.
[...Convincing.]
How about you? You guys had a hard time a couple days ago; Zelda did all the work for me.
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You can't escape your feelings forever. And...yeah, Camilla is not even close to convinced and just places a hand in front of her mouth.]
...I'm quite fine. It isn't anything that needs concern.
[we're just like a bunch of fucking wobbuffets using mirror coat with how hard we're deflecting shit, aren't we]
You make it sound like you're getting sick when you say that, Jake. [she ain't buying that] Did dealing with the guardian discomfort you again?
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[He shrugs a bit; goes back to studying those carvings.]
I've just kind of been having a hard time this month. I don't know, it's stupid.
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[Camilla sighs a bit, but her tone goes a little bit softer, practically into big sister register.]
I doubt that it isn't as stupid as you think it may be, if it's bothering you to such an extent.
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It feels kind of like the more we stay here, the less I actually have anything.
[It's...a start.]
Like, you guys all loved those little towns and shit, and you're doing great with your Pokรฉmon and the routes have all been easy this month, but it feels like if I'm not in a position where I'm probably gonna die every thirty seconds, I don't really have a fucking purpose, you know? I don't think about shit, I don't deal with shit, I don't help people with their problems, but there's literally nothing to do but all of that here, and I just want to go back where something's trying to murder me every time I turn around so I don't have to do this anymore.
[...That was a lot of words, um.]
...We've been making a lot of progress, and doing a lot of good for these people. I shouldn't be getting all weird about it. Like I said, it's stupid.
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Oh, that's...Camilla listens, honestly kind of stunned by that. It's...something she can kind of get, honestly, and empathize with if the slightly pained expression on her face is any indication; this whole place took away the one thing she was confident in doing and basically shot her first instincts back at her. The ones that wanted nothing more than to tear something apart or just kill everything, because that's how problems are solved and severed for good, and all they've been doing is talking their way through it, and...
Gods. It's a quick gesture she'll stop if he's uncomfortable with it, but she's gonna place a hand on his shoulder if she's able to.]
Jake. I want to tell you this right now; what you're feeling and what you've said, it isn't stupid. It isn't stupid to feel like you're out of your element and have no purpose when it's all been ripped away from you without a single word in edgewise, and are forced to resort to all but becoming some form of tactician who can only sit, watch, and talk their way through something.
It makes one feel powerless in such a situation, does it not?
[She's...she knows he's not good at this, but you know what, she wants to help him suss through this because of the familiarity of it. Because suffering alone is a fate nobody deserves.]
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...Yeah, kinda. I guess.
[It's not an admission he likes making, but it's. something.]
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...You're doing what you can in a situation that's so different than what you're used to. [Maybe it's enough, maybe it's not, but--] And it's clearly not for nothing. Your Pokemon...they clearly love you; I've seen it in the way Hlaฤa has clung to you in adoration, and I see it in the way Lobanja is so concerned for you. Whether you've felt forced into the decision or simply decided upon it, it's still something you've done, and it's no less beautiful because it feels so foreign to you. And that's to say nothing of how well the people have come to like you as well, much like Zelda and how kindly she spoke of you.
But I am rambling, aren't I? [She chuckles a bit, almost ashamedly.] And perhaps I'm being presumptuous. What you're feeling is natural, after being in such a position and forcibly taken out of it, all but forced to adapt, of course, but all the same...the idea that you have little to nothing, when you've clearly tried, it's saddening. No one should have to feel alone like that, nor be isolated with those thoughts.
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Look, I don't... I'm okay, you know? It's just kind of a lot of stuff to think about, but I really am gonna be fine. I'm pretty used to how this sort of shit works, you don't have to be all worried about it.
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Jake, you do realize who you're talking to here, don't you? I'm going to worry about you regardless. That's simply what I do.
[camilla maybe you should not...]
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[Eye contact isn't happening too well, though.]
Hell if I know why? But I know.
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Well, now I'm left to wonder if you wish to know the reason!
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[...]
You're gonna embarrass the fuck out of me, aren't you.
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I suppose that depends on what you define as embarrassing, now doesn't it?
[he can't see it, but oh boy does she have a smirk on her face right now]
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Go ahead. Let's get this shit over with.
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...Finds that she can't really start like that? For all of her smugness and joking, it actually takes her a bit to actually say anything, and by the time she starts, it's...surprisingly, pretty genuine in tone.]
...Truth be told, it's rather simple; you remind me of myself, in some ways. Perhaps it's presumptuous to say, but...we're both the sort of people who seem to come alive when the situation is dire, and we're left with nothing but what we've learned to stay alive. Being in this situation where there's no use for combat, when you're explicitly ordered to not kill anything that deserves to be killed but being too weak to do so...it's demoralizing, more than anyone here could realize.
It's not just that, of course. It's the things you've told me, as well, about how you've dealt with such terrible conditions... [This is probably the point where her eyes avert to the point of no return.] It makes me want the future to be brighter for you, so that you have something more than the hideous lot you've been given in life. So that you have something that's simply...yours, really, and has nothing to do with that father of yours? Something you can be proud of, and happy with. I certainly have no godly idea of what I can do, really, but I can't simply stand idly by while you try to avoid your problems as if you're some unaffected pillar. It'd be like letting one of my siblings down, and it's--
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You know, that goddamn S word just feels like it makes everything click in her head in a way that almost makes her embarrassed, which wasn't the endgoal of this at all, she's just gonna try to double back from that--]
It's simply as I said earlier; I can't stand the idea of anyone being alone. Perhaps it's simply that I have a habit of wanting to help people with their problems.
[...Convincing.]
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You trying to be my sister now too, Camilla?
[That's. You know, it's actually not as pointed as it could have been, nor does it sound like he's mocking her? Just sort of throwing it out there because what the fuck does he say to that, really.]
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She hates her life, in some ways. This is fucking stupid. What does she even say to that. She's just kind of placing a hand in front of her face.]
What kind of question is that? Really?
[She just sounds exasperated, hang on.]
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[...she huffs just a bit, seeming to just kind of. Mull that over?
...]
...I suppose I wouldn't say no?
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Well...yeah? I mean, I guess that makes both of us?
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Well, I suppose it does?
[Camilla was not expecting to be thrown off like this, holy shit. That exasperated look just kind of fades off and she seems kind of openly stunned?]
...If you're quite certain, of course, I wouldn't mind.
[...It's probably obvious but she's. Still processing this.]
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It's a lot, and he's not altogether sure how he feels about it because his track record with family is total shit, but- ]
You want me to have something that's mine, yeah? Something I can be proud of and...happy with, I guess.
Sounds like a good thing to me.
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You know, she did not expect that, she actually seems taken aback by that for just a moment. Mostly at that first bit because she did not expect that to get turned back on her? She was just talking like...a good life for himself, but like...it's good?
...It's good.
It's good and by the time Camilla finds it in her to respond, she's smiling warmly and just really, really complimented by that? She's not crying, or anything (thank the gods) but man if she isn't just jazzed as hell--]
...If that's the case, I would be delighted. Though you'll have to realize that you'll be stuck with a big sister who worries.